Someday

There is only NOW and SOMEDAY...
and SOMEDAY is some imaginary time in the future.

Right NOW I'm having a difficult time getting it together.
I woke up with a negative aura...for no particular reason...,
and it's taking a great deal of effort to displace it.

I work to feel and accept my feelings
without actually cultivating those I find difficult.
I've found that if I don't "feed" negativity,
it will soon dissipate.

The issue is....I am not merely giving in to a bad mood.
I'm working at refusing to dwell on negative thoughts,
by telling myself positive things,
by listing some of the many things I am grateful for.

Right NOW I am addressing the daily tasks that are necessary,
....although I would rather do them SOMEDAY...
including writing here this morning.

I know and understand that feelings come and go,
both good and bad, and that
although I can work to minimize the feelings
that I'd rather not have, I can't escape them.

A great deal of my own emotional eating issues
came from an inner belief that it was necessary to escape
from negative feelings...rather than let them run their course.
Now I know it's okay...and necessary...to feel them.

I've also learned that although I have to FEEL my feelings,
I don't have to act them all out.
I don't HAVE to cultivate them and help them grow.

Right NOW, not SOMEDAY,
I can work to be pleasant to both myself and others
even when I feel a bit low and mean.
An important life lesson I've learned is that my life works better for me,
when I don't try to bring myself up, by bringing others down.
While my negative feelings exist and must be felt,
every unpleasant thought I have doesn't need to be verbalized,

There's a really good chance that I'm going to feel good again within a few hours.
However, part of writing daily articles in a Blog like this,
is sharing both the ups and the downs.
Everyone's life has both, mine included.